30?...holding back tears... and a creepy hand

So I'm on the computer tonight.  Again.  What's new.  I'm always on the computer it seems, when Remy is asleep.  I look at the calendar.  No way, it's almost October!  One more week of September.  Where did it go?  I realize I'm going to be 30 in two weeks from today.  And no, that's not the holding back tears part.  30 is totally the new 20.  I'm excited to be moving into a new decade of life.  But I decided to rewind one year, and look at pictures from last October.  I see my baby, and she's a BABY.  And I cry a little.  Because I miss that BABY!  I love love love my toddler, but I miss my bald, chubby thighed, grinning baby.  *sigh*

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But, then again, I look at this photo of Remy taken last week, and it melts my heart.

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Even if I miss that baby, I have loved every stage and discovery that we've gone through with Remy and look forward to the onslaught of many more adventures and discoveries to come.

Continuing on with my reminiscing, I came across this photo:

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How in the world is that creepy creepy hand coming out of my side like that? It's a Halloween trick, I'm sure. No one's hand could possibly look that creepy. Oh, I remember now, it's just the grim reaper coming after Sam. (She was 12 yrs. at the time, it's highly possible)

So after my teary moment, I had a good laugh on behalf of my occasional awkward lankiness.

4 comments:

Emily said...

Sorry to break it to you but 30 is not the new 20. 30 brings wrinkles, aches, a need for more sleep and I'm only 32! Maybe it's the fact that I have FOUR boys?? I hope the thirties treat you better than me! ha ha!! In fact I'm sure they will! Remy is gorgeous-seriously! I couldn't pick a favorite stage of life- they are all special in different ways! It was so nice to see you the other night, thanks for stopping by- I LOVE LOVE LOVE the pictures you took! Thank you so much!!

Emily said...

p.s. I guess with the 30's forgetfulness comes along to... I am not 32- I'm 33!!!

Sheesh!!

Lauren and Carter said...

Wow. That's crazy to put the two picture side by side. But that second picture of her is absolute perfection. She is so beautiful.

Heather said...

30 is the new 20 and don't let anyone tell you any different!! PS. Your hand is creepy and awkward. And that is one of the many reasons I love you. Creep...